Technically we didn’t breakup i just asked for abreak from for like amonth but deep down i think we both know its the end. I miss him so much sometimes i just want to call him and tell him i want him back and all is well but i know that won’t solve anything we would be happy for ashort while then we would just get back to our usual issues. We want different things and however much we try we are not reaching a compromise. I love him so much and i really thought he was the one despite the different issues coz i think even soulmates disagree from time to time.
One thing am grateful for is that though he might not think so he helped find my my way back to God, i was so lost in the world and there he appeared just like an angel sent by God. Thats why i thought he had to be the real deal but maybe he was just put there to pave way for the real love of my life. I keep telling myself am going to chill relationships for the time being and concentrate on my new profound love for GOD but i can’t help thinking about him and wondering whether he is thinking about me too. He hasn’t called or sent any sms but thats because i told him not contact me at all and i guess he is giving me the space i asked him for. And when am not thinking about him am wondering what my next guy is going to be and each guy i look like i keep wondering whether he is the next one…hahaha…Funny thing happened at work yesterday, we had an IT specialist over because our network was giving us issues he is an ok guy but you know how hot aguy can look when he starts talking about his profession and is extremely good at what he does. So he needed to go back to his station and sort out some things out and he asked for my number so that i could be his contact person so that i let him know when our network is back on, he left me with his laptop and thats when the carzy thoughts came into my head. That what if he is the one God has sent for me and then started thinking about our kids and how bright they would be because combination of an accountant mother and IT specialist father would just be dop. Then almost immediately i think God wanted to let me know he is so not the one, ascreensaver of avery cute baby pooped up on his laptop, at first i was shocked but then i was like it could his niece or nephew i do that alot, my nephew has been my profile picture anumber of times, then another one of abeautiful lady popped up but i refused to let it get to me and i remained optimistic that he is my soulmate(keep in mind i had just met him that day and we had talked for amaximum of 5mins). I think God wanted to put an end to all my silliness coz another screensaver popped of the three of them, the big happy family. So that put an end to my silly day dreaming for that day.
I hope God gives me the patience to wait and trust that he has my back and the right person is going to come along soon and to only concentrate on getting to know his awesome word in the meantime and nothing else. I know its hard to do seeing as most of my friends are getting married left and right and popping ababies like nothing. I want to have ababy but not with just anyone i want HIM the one God has been reserving for just me and if its my ex then super!!!!
Gosh, does that sound like me! Breakups are hard … and I too have been “taking breaks” with my beaux. As much as I love him, why are breaks necessary … doesn’t that just mean that we’re hanging on to something that’s just not working right now? I’ve been very discouraged about it and really trying to seek the Lord in prayer. As much as I’m not sure I want to really cut ties with my guy, I keep praying for obedience, because in the end I just want to be on God’s path. His is the way of the light and truth and there I will be most content. Till then, when I’m feeling really depressed, I look to something Joel Osteen once said, “When it looks dark, when you don’t see how you’ll ever be happy, doesn’t look like there’s a way, God has a way. If you will stay in faith God will not let the enemy have the last laugh, you will have the last laugh. It may be Friday, but Sunday is coming…don’t loose your passion for life, God has the final say and He’s saying your life is not going to end on a negative, ‘I’m bringing you to a flourishing finish.’ The forces that are for you are greater than the forces that are against you!” And then I smile. 🙂
Good luck,
Stephanie
Thanx for that…i am walking the walk of faith and i hope i don’t breakdown and end up calling him,coz a break is really sometimes necessary. i know God knows what is best for me so am leaving everything in his hands. I like Joel Osteen and i am so going to adopt that quote